Brokenness.

Today was a day I just wanted to scream all the brokenness inside me. Full of gnarled feelings and mangled thoughts. Nothing made sense; nothing could.... Just brokenness. Just hurting. Just deep wells of no connection.

Today was my mom's birthday. Its the day that really has become the most important to me, because it was the day of life. Of the last time I really poured my heart out to her. Of love. Of the letter. Today was a day that holds the relationship, the meaning of my mom.

Today was hard. Today was hopeless. Today was broken. Today I am thankful for the few who remembered; the two who were willing to sit.

But today, I am sad. Broken.