Restructure Sand.

This new phase of life is a restructuring of my brain. It restructures my emotions, my thoughts, my patterns, the way I think through things. I have been 'independent' for a while now, physically, financially, logistically. But this new phase clearly points me as this black dot in the middle of a blank page. Independent. Loosely connected.

There used to be a center, a foundation. There used to be a place to stand and a knowledge of the base that was behind me and under me. That is no longer. I stand alone. I stand with some friends and a few relatives holding my hands, but the reality is, I stand alone. I am an orphan on this dirt road journey. Wondering and wandering but finding small bits of clarity as I begin to make this journey this way. So I restructure my brain, change my patterns of thinking, reexamine my countenance, and walk without a foundation. It's feeble and faltered, but gaining steady steps. I walk. This journey, this orphan, this new pattern of sand.