Three Times Today.

Three times today

God spoke

To me

About the

Desert Place.

Three times today

He said the

Words.

Three times

I heard His

Voice.

Three times today

I nodded

In reply;

Three times

I walked

Away.

Three times today

And yet

I still

Don't

Believe.

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Postscript Notes: The Three Times

1) Morning Journal/Read time -- About Moses, the desert, manna, and time (The Land Between by Jeff Manion)

2) Church -- About the road to Egypt and Jesus as a child, kept hidden in that place, alive but away.

3) Jesus Calling -- About Jacob and the desolate place, but then saying "Surely the Lord is in this place."

And how, and why, do I still find myself questioning and angry, finding such desert place, when this gives such punctual and obvious manna and Presence?

And to add to that -- a "God Sighting" this morning in church -- as I had prayed specifically this weekend about my Tuesday night Bible Study and joining/staying/leaving, etc... evaluating its purpose and my purpose and intentions in going.... resolving neither to engage nor disengage, when but for the first time ever, I run into the leader at church and was reminded and encouraged that she wants me there and connections will come...

Oh Lord, strengthen my unbelief.