Or Reject Him.

"The position was not, as I had been comfortabley thinking all these months, merely a question of whether I was to accept the Messiah or not. It was a question of whether I was to accept him -- or reject. My God!" ~ Sheldon Vanauken, A Severe Mercy, p. 98

How clearly this text severed my wandering. How clearly it stated my compelling to carry my cross.