That feeling...

I once took a job that I knew from the first meeting that I shouldn't have. It was at a church and I had a terrible feeling about it from the get-go, but based on the fact that I had no other options and it seemed everyone I talked to thought it was a great job for me, I took it. It was security, it was a salary, it was a step.
I found out really quickly why I had that stubborn intuition, and that I should have followed that instead. I found out really quickly that I can't always put logic and practicality over the Spirit's guidance. It ended up with me quitting (which got messy) after about 2-3 months and tumbling through a series of hurdles in between.

I think that's why I have this fear now. Because setting foot on the campus of this new school gives me the same feeling. The same "I shouldn't be here" thing. All practicality points to a salary, benefits, a place to go everyday. And I try to reason with it -- that its a place for me to go everyday, that sixth graders could be a good change, that I can fight through it and it might get better. That its just my emotions in turmoil right now.
But I'm not sure that this is right. I'm not sure what I will do if I don't stay there. I'm not sure if I trust my emotions and intuition right now when everything seems out of wack. But I have that same feeling... which then echos with fear.