Wouldn't That Just Be God.

So wouldn't that just be God. That I'm sitting here writing about how I can't wait until my 40 days of Faith are up. That it's ridiculous and I can't understand myself and what happened to me, that I'm ready to go back from this. And working over what that actually is saying -- after 40 days of Faith to go back to unbelief? of living with a lesser God? Of easier processes within me?

Then I put in the Beth Moore cd of the day, literally, for her to yell at me. And she is. And God is using here to slap me inside.

Because the opening for today and headline of the section is Joshua.

"Be strong and courageous."

Wouldn't you just know... wouldn't you just know that this is the day, the week, that God would reiterate that growth in my mind. That he would take that passage back out of the Word, and the many cards and words of me and my mom in March, April, and into May, and reclaim me through the yelling at me of her voice. [I wrote on this whole story/idea a lot earlier, perhaps in May or June.]

God, keep slapping me inside. Keep instilling in me your words and wisdom: "Be strong and very courageous." Don't let me give in and sink in to less than this. Build up your shield of faith within me.